no point telling and showing all this , once again u hurt me and lie to me and hack my privacy ! this time i will nvr forgive u
This is all the pictures I had inside my com.

I'm smiling when I'm seeing those memories.

But I'm tearing when it's no longer there.
I Love You..
12March 2009 (Thursday)
He going Army on that day, I skipped school and went to his house early in the morning to send him off. Last time for me to wash his long hair before becoming botak. He teared. Me too.


Hope you don't mind, because this pic wasn't taken nice.
Bought on 14/2/2009
Couple Lab,Plaza Sg
Valentine's day

Some MEMORIES~

Taken in Bedok Mac, he helping me do hw.
Physic. Abt North pole & South pole.

I got nth to do, so I took some lame lame pic. ><






HAHA! Pon school.


Went E!hub for the whole day.












 


Pasir Ris Park!












So funny!



(HoiLee) I know you randomly goes into our blog to see,but after you read this. I think I had already disappeared in your life. I have a few things to tell you before I could leave in peace, whether you believe it anot is up to you.


You told my maid that I had changed ever since I came back from Hk ? Ha! I agree with that, because I know that I love you, I need you by my side & I want you to stay with me but at the other side, I know I can't do that because my parents is objecting so much that I promise them that I wont be tgt with you anymore until the day they accept you. So I tend to treat you bad, so you wont give high hope. But when you're giving up, I tend to return to you, because I cant afford to lose you. Yeah, maybe is my fault for being so selfish. Anyway, I just feel like saying out everything because I felt very empty & upset.

Next, yesterday I went Audi to find you & I told you that I got sth to tell you that relates to parents. But you claim not to listen.. I kept calling your house phone until you start talking to others after that 2am can call through le but it's too late for me to tell you all these. And you don't wish to listen too, so why not  i type here? If got fate, you will get to read this and found out all the truth? (: Actually, last night I told dad that I'm very unhappy with alot of things. blahblah.... -Skipped--  Dhen  he asked whether did you called my mother to apologise & talk out things. I said " Mummy not in Singapore, hard to explain things. Actually we planned to have a talk right after she is back Sg! " Dhen dad say " Okay, good. I'll always support you and convice your Mummy. If Alex can change to a better one and promise Mummy. I think it will go smoothly." I cried out and kept calling you but you din bother. So I went Audi to find you. I'm very happy that we will get a chance to be tgt with both parents agreed our relationship if it works. But I think this will never happen le.


Next next, I start to get numb with all the vulgar you scolded me. It wont hurt me anymore. But disappointed with it. You promised me that no matter how angry or fcuk care everything, you will not even say a single of that word. But you did. So I just agreed with what you scolded me. Changed number? Maybe you just bought a new ppc? or another line (cancelling this line soon) No matter what. If this happens, fated.


Lastly, I did felt regret and not regret to what happened to us. I dk what I'm planning to do nor do I know what we should do next. But, I believe in fate & most importantly I believed in you. No matter what you did in the past, present ( some things I shldn't know, but I found out. Sadly) , future. As long that we are tgt , we love each other, I'll believe in you.
I miss you, I need you, I LOVE YOU.
Even though I treat you very cold, but everything I do there must be a reason.
Even if we cant be tgt anymore, I hope our memories will be kept with us forever.
Even if you don't believe what I'm saying now. I won't blame you at all. I deserve all this.
Even if you don't love me anymore, I'll love you secretly in my heart.
Even if you had a gf now, I'll tell you last long with her. Treat it as a wishing but in my heart I may be hurting so much.
Even if I love you, I don't mind you not loving me back.
I LOVE YOU.

All the best to everything.
TakeCare.
Signing off. (:
i think i going to walk this life alone again ler . my heart shattered . i goin out now ler . i realli nid some fresh air by smoking . hmm i will always love u but to u jus treat it as i give up on u ler . i noe is complicated but this is wad u always wish for , for me to give up like wad u said jus now and i grant u ur wish , i wun disturb u anymore ler .
sry , i think i give up ler , i realli cant take it ler , everything u also scold me everything also wan to say me . i did nth wrong u also scold me . i realli veri stress ler dhen u keep on adding it . i have been crying everyday , when u will stop it ? ur mum talk to me and call me nt to pester u ler , u jus now say u wan contact others ler , u scold me like fk for small issue , i realli veri hurt ler . i always try not to give up but u keep on adding it on to me . i realli burst out ler . WHy u wan force me to be like this ? my dad come home scold me , say why must u cry everyday for a ger , why u nid make urself miserable ? my heart answer cos i love u , i nid u badly . I realli put in alot alot effort ler . I told u i give up ler , and u said smth even hurt my heart alot . u said ya , i noe ah , finally give up . So u all the way wan me give up but why u dun wan say ? why must u keep on hurt me until so much and finally say u actually wan me give up ler ? why !!!!!! u realli brk my heart alot alot alot deeply ler
now mind mood is veri angry and moody . EH ANY ONE CAN TELL ME WAD I DO WRONG ANOT ?! i 5 plus use com awhile dhen i went to slp . i jus log in maplestory , see ler and log out , then after that talk to her on fone . Then i went to slp all the way until 9 plus , then have mine dinner . i called her and i nvr see previously she got call me cos my fone charging in room . Then after that we chat on fone . She started scold me . wad did i do wrong ? she say i got the time to login maple and see dun have the time to blog , dhen keep on scold and scold . eh where did i done wrong ? i told her i got one whole day to blog , i still got so much time to blog so when i blog is okay de wad ? wad wrong wif that ? and i rmb once she told me , i also not her who , why i bother so much about her . Dhen i onli say bak the same thing wad . i told her we two not bf / gf , when i wan blog is my own problem wad . wad wrong wif it ? I REALLI CANT GET IT . for nth come find thing quarrel wif me about blogging . dhen i told her enuff and i hang the call str8 . is not my fault at all ok ! she realli veri ridiculous !




and one more thing i wanna say . i have been giving in alot ler . NOW IS U VERI OVERBOARDING! ASKING FOR MORE ! I WAN PATCH I GIVE IN , I CHANGED , I DO EVERYTHING FOR U ! NOW U EVERYTIME MORE AND MORE GUO FEN .
(HoiLee) I am tired too! Today's lesson starts from 7.10 am to 5.10pm. I wonders whether working is more tiring or schooling! Haha! My parents came to fetch me home and once I reach home I lie on bed and rest until I fall asleep, daddy came in my room twice to ask me go down for dinner. I ate pretty lot! Omg. I finish my rice ley. After eating went to bath dhen eat fruit dhen play iPhone game dhen call you alot lah. Zzz I'm speechless with your topic! Yarh this time your fault. LOL! Next time maybe also ;x kidding. I really hope you can question me lesser, as long as I promised you dhen dun suspect. If not what's the point to promise you in the first place? You made me feel like a prisoner, I'll feel annoy with it after that scold you. You also will sad sad mah. One day ask 1 time enough le ok? Lastly, abt ur MSG. You mean sth in my heart but I think it's just not the right time for me to accept you yet. I'm abit afraid of getting into relationship currently, so I need time. That's all. And my O level is sort of stressing me, if you really wants to help me,help me release stress by not stressing me & be more understanding & more sweet & giving in more... Etc. I shall stop here today. Tired tired tired~

And and and..
I DO MISS YOU TOO! (referring to ur MSG )
So must cheer up okay? I don't like emo boy.
GOOD NIGHT!
hmm today went to SAFTI MI for saf parade , im the behind stage de , to make sure secruity thingy and if anything happen , we will evacuate all ppl from dere . hmm 9.30 leave camp ler dhen 9.30 leave that place . wtf lor ! shld be 8 plus can go home de but ah the vip nvr go so we cant go and stay until so long ! reach hm about 11pm lor ! so tiring but nvrmind today lunch we ate kfc and dinner is pizzza hut!!!!!

today baby keep on hang my call , dun wan pick my call and keep scolding me . i quite emo today . dunno why must i cry for her everyday . hais ! she scolded me alot . ya i noe i veri naggy and i apologise for it . veri sry ! i will try to control myself but do i realli stand anything in ur heart ? i am wondering . am i something important to u now or am i nth to you ? i realli tried alot effort trying to save this relationship ler but baby dun keep scold me , i do my part , u do ur part okay ?  i have changed alot ler , i give in everything ler but sometime i jus find it realli not my fault and i jus wan ur apology . i noe is very hard for u to say barhx , maybe is ur pride . i hope u can be like me , put down pride , pride worth nth compare to our relationship . pride or you ? i will definately choose u . i hope to get the same response as u . nvrmind barhx today matter about u misunderstand me forget it barhx , jus push it to me barhx . but next tyme i hope no more ler ah ~ hahas , i hope u can do it for me , i hope i not the onli one trying to save this relationship . i hope u will be wif me and save this relationship , u meant alot to me and onli u give me the greatest courage to put down my pride and willingly to do anything to save this relationship . 我永远爱你！




(HoiLee) Yupp! Memorable uhs. Those memories are really sweet ;) I still remember that place was at Punggol end & Pasir Ris park. Pasir Ris park de was taken in the morning , that day I pon school. ;x The other one at Punggol end de was after my school ;) and you bring me there, you even bought potato chip there to eat (sour cream flavor). I still remember I stuck grass into your hair on that day ;D haha! It's really fun, every moment full of laughter. But for now, haiz... I really hope to get back to those days and delete those bad memories and hurtful things in our brain. It's stupid thinking yet I wish it can happen. So tian zhen! My hp no batt, of cos hp will shut down I did told you! Yet you take this chance to go into dreamland!! Jkjk. I called your hp twice and your mum pick up, she say Zheng An sleeping le ley and he is drooling saliva on his pillow!! Yuck! So disgusting. Later you wake up I gonna deal with you for ps-ing me , worst still I'm saying good night to you instead of you! I angry le. You better give me an explanation hor. Humph! >;/